In appreciation of a great pen

I owe a pen to a kid named Tyler.
I took his pen almost a year ago, when he was running lights for a play I was directing that I’d written for a one-act festival. I borrowed it to take notes during a rehearsal and it wound up in my pocket afterward, as often happens.
But it had such a smooth, easy feel to it that I never gave it back. It was a black ballpoint with the Amnesty International name and logo on it. And I apologize for not returning it.
But I’m not sorry I have it.
Pens are a crucial tool of my trade. Where many – if not most – people in my profession now use recorders (I almost said tape recorders, thus showing my vintage) when they conduct an interview, I’ve always been a note-taker. When I conduct an interview, I pull out a reporter’s notebook and a pen and write down as much of what is said to me as possible.
And you can’t overestimate how important a good – nay, a great – pen is to that particular task. Which is why I love the pen I took from Tyler.
It’s about that feeling of pen on paper – they don’t call them ballpoints just for fun. It’s all about the alchemy between that ballpoint and a certain rougher grade of paper that you find in reporter’s’ notebooks. These slender notebooks tend to have slightly less slick, more absorbent paper than, say, the kind of spiral notebooks you used in school or find in marble composition books.
As I said, I’ve been taking notes for a long time and, in the past 10 years, have had enough interview subjects tell me I’m unusual in that regard to know that I’m part of a shrinking, perhaps disappearing breed. I never learned shorthand; over the years, I’ve created my own, I guess. I’ve written three books for which all interviews were conducted in this manner and written literally thousands of feature stories for newspapers and magazines in which I quoted people from my notes. Yet I’ve never been accused of misquoting anyone.
And, in a lot of ways, it’s all about the pen.
Somehow, when the right pen hits the right paper, there’s a little bit of magic. Writing becomes fast and effortless. The pen glides across the paper, capturing the words almost as they’re spoken. There are moments when it feels like the pen has a mind of its own – sort of the cursive version of “The Red Shoes.” It is the perfect blend of person, pen and paper.
By contrast, when the match of pen and paper is wrong, it can feel like torture. The point of the pen seems to dig in to the paper, offering resistance that feels like scratching a stick on a brick.
I used to be incredibly persnickety about what writing implement I used. I had a thing for finding the finest point possible, at one point affecting the use of Koh-I-noor Rapidographs, a brand of needle-pointed fountain pen that was a lot more trouble than it was worth and whose points were painfully sensitive (and easy to bend or break).
I used to disdain ballpoints in favor of what were, way back when, known as felt-tip pens, which eventually went mass-market with the Flair. They still make them, though they now refer to them as porous-point pens.
Eventually, I changed over to pens that combined the ink of a felt tip with the rolling ball of a ballpoint, particularly the ones made by Pilot and Uniball. Again, I tended to favor the finest possible tip – as a matter of taste and probably, to some extent, pretension (it made doodling more interesting, too).
I’ve come around to the beauty of a good ballpoint in the last couple of years. I tended to pick them up in hotels and, once, was pressed into using one when my fancier Pilot pen turned out to have exploded from pressure changes after an airplane trip. As it happened, the ballpoint I grabbed outperformed my pen of choice.
These days, ballpoints come with finer tips and “gel” ink – and spongy, comfortable grips. And so I’ve stopped buying boxes of the expensive pens and gone almost full-time to ballpoints – the retractable ones that you click on the top, for quick and easy deployment.
I am, as I said, a vanishing breed. These days, the bulk of reporters capture an interview on a digital recording device (which, to me, is like doing the interview twice, which wastes a lot of time). Students, in college classroom settings, more often type notes into a laptop than scribble them into a notebook.
The idea of carrying a pen (or more than one pen) and taking notes by hand in actual handwriting makes it seem as though I’m stuck in another century.
Well, in some ways, I am. But it’s too late to stop now.
So, sorry, Tyler. And thanks for the pen. I’m still using it – and I’ll miss it when it runs out of ink.
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July 12th, 2012 at 1:36 pm
Thanks for the memories piece. Seriously.
I am a graphic designer, so Kohinoor (Worldwide Quality since 1790) is a name that’s as familiar as American Mutoscope and Biograph Company. Both stand for old-world quality.
You are a dying breed perhaps, too, in that you know so much about film that many young movie critics and fans don’t. The fashion of “it was before my time” sounds ridiculous to those of us who have a love for film, and think of Broken Blossoms as just a great love story, a culturally, socially sophisiticated one, actually, and beautifully acted, too… not as an obscure silent movie. Some of my friends (I’m 65, for the record) don’t, really, have never watched a silent movie. Not even Griffith’s previous blockbuster, Intolerance.
I’m thankful, as I’m sure you are, that we’ve seen the world of great film move from the revival house (mine were the classics in NYC, back in 60′s) to the DVD and the WEB. That all media has gone digital is perhaps the culmination of the last century’s sweeping change of electricity/film/movies/sound/digital, into world-wide culture. If only we made films, not war.
Digital is McLuhan country, but it is beyond nations, it is world. Enveloping, aural, not linear, and massage. It’s a great time to be alive, and literally feel the world of mediated interaction all around us.
The one thing recording does, that you and your pen do not, is capture each word, every inflection, so that a complex quote or rambling sentence like some of these have been… is not lost. Or changed. There’s a quote by Freud, quoted by Peter Gay in his great book on Freud, it goes something like, and I can’t use quote marks if I don’t get it right, can I?… it goes, “We go to fiction in seach of the many lives that we need to know of…”
But that’s not as good as Freud said it. The idea is right, the words aren’t exacting as Freud. The idea is the same for film, we go to film for the lives we seek, we need, and in a film, we have multiple lives, the story, the actors, the director, the film itself as it comes together, or falls apart, the time of the film, in film history, in history, in our personal history.
Too much for a ball-point pen? Not in your hands, thankfully. So the point of this ball-point comment is, thanks for taking it down. After putting it together.
And then sharing it with us.
Dennis Hermanson
Hillsborough NC
July 16th, 2012 at 11:44 am
“In the realm of fiction we find the plurality of lives we need.”
Freud, quoted in Freud, A LIfe for Our Time, by Peter Gay.
Thanks for the ease of download your new audio podcasts now.
Best,
Dennis Hermanson